Inside The Demons' Head #12: How The Past Defines You
April 12, 2012
So as any of you who have either subscribed to my blog, followed me on Twitter, or Liked my Facebook Page may have noticed I only do 2 blog post a week usually and that's simply because 9 times outta 10 I don't have much more to talk about. However, today's April Platforming Challenge prompt came at the most opportune time as last night I got blasted with something I wanted to share with everyone.
Me and Liz were on our way back from my dad's house after watching movies and having dinner with him and my grandma when I started pondering book, story and poem ideas. The hour long car ride I was in a bit of a daze bouncing between the ideas and wondering how it was that I found myself in the position that I'm currently in, a radio major with no full time job to speak of, and I kept asking myself why.
Then on top of that I began thinking about a conversation that I had with a friend, who is an aspiring song writer. Though this conversation I kept explaining how I had put many hours into defining my style, and how I wrote, and wrote, and wrote some more to keep perfecting my craft. (Something I'm still a WAYS from might I add)
It was then that I realized that if I had looked at everything I had done through childhood, from sitting on the front stoop of a store my dad ran and writing my first full length short story, or the amount of time I spent in school in my free time writing, or even the 10 months after my first move when I used to sit out in my Aunt's garage for at least 2 hours a day EVERY DAY, turn on the radio and write while sitting on a bar stool into a notebook.
I wrote everything from poems, Stories, Story ideas, different things I saw in my imagination but beyond that I didn't really branch out. However, it was in that time I did a lot of learning, about myself, about writing, and how much I loved it, and why I loved it. I never did it as a way to escape, but as a way to express myself. I learned how to create worlds that don't exists and how to put myself in the middle of them.
What I learned yesterday was that I had I sat down and looked through the glass and thought about what I enjoyed and what I was good at, then I wouldn't be paying off a loan that I'm not using, and I'd almost be done with a degree in something from a school where I could go out and likely get a writing job.
The reason I bring this up isn't because I would like sympathy, not even in the least, but I share this experience with you because, determining the path you want in life can be so much easier if you look back at the past that you've had. If your like me and have been writing for years, then it only makes sense that you would be a writer. If you love to use your voice, or your hands then chase those dreams.
Until the next time you take a trip through the gates of hell, and into the demons' head, I'm Kyle Robinson wishing you a safe trip back to the surface.
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